starting anew... posting something for the people who's always been there

to start anew... i just wanna say thank you for the people who have always believed in me... these are just ordinary people who had an incredible impact in my life... ordinary people i met during the course of my intriguing and adventurous lifestyle... actually, they're not just any ordinary people... these people are the chosen ones whom i call my bestfriends... so, without further a do... here they are...

1. kristine "tin" corpuz
"mare" is our term of calling each other... she has this mini store of some kind that offers lots of cheezy delights and iced cold sodas such as Fruit Soda Lemon or Orange... her store has been our barkada tambayan ever since high school... i come to her place every now and then just to unwind and let loose my girly intentions towards any feelings i'm having, and also to catch a glimpse of her hot brother... who also goes by the name of Mark... my second name is Mark by the way... hehehe... despite our girly talks and chitchats, she also provides comments, feedbacks, lazy thoughts, and violent reactions regarding any issues at hand... i've learned a lot from her despite the free nick snacks i'm getting from her store... hehehehehe...

2. michil "mimay" bulabos
the BFF, a girl who's so crazy, she'll beat the heck out of you... she's always been there to stand up for those who's always in need of protection... like me... hehehehe... if u wanna hear something out of this world comments, compliments, lazy thoughts, and most of all violent reactions... she's the girl to talk to... despite the fact that we don't see each other too often, we know by heart that we're always gonna be there for each other (and also for the whole group)... Today, this BFF of mine is now in Canada, working for the future of her siblings, and us... I've also learned a lot from this girl, despite the fact that I have to shake her up just to get something out of her... hehehehe....

3. jeffrey "jeff" go
have you ever seen a guy who has this cute looks, undeniably handsome face, striking smile, and a manly sort of gestures... well... here you are guys, the man of our group, jeff..! but there's something amiss about this guy... something that would leave you questioning the fact that is it really true..? well... i'll just leave that point to further questions, coz if i slip the fact that he is something more than that meets the eye... i'll be running the hell out of here... hehehehe... anyways, enough of that... jeff is the kind of guy who has a lot to say about anything... he is very opinionated and optimistic at all times... just don't steer into his bad side... you'll hear a lot of "growing up" issues from him... hehehehe... despite the growing up issues, this guy has feeded me a lot of manly advices along the way...

4. viktoria "vik" turingan
if mimay has this combustion of violent reactions... vik is the girls who is born to do violent reactions... i mean, i don't get it... why is she always in the mood to start a fight? she even wanna take on a tarsier for chrissakes! just look at that evil smile on her face... it's bugging me... hehehe... well, on to the main part, vik is the kind of girl who has a LOT of things to say, whether it's about boys, girls, gays, lesbos, goats, cows, birds, ants, less fortunate ones, members of the high social economical classes, and most of all, tarsiers and pig drawings... she often gives advices about love, employment status, education, and yet again, boys... hehehehe...

5. irene "irene" delos reyes
i know she's fat... but there's nothing we can do about this... irene has this wicked sense of humor, that whenever she opens her mouth, we all end up laughing all the way from starbucks pearl drive up to the point she gets off the car... there's never a dull day with her around... she always makes it to the point where everyone is laughing their heads out... she won't be satisfied until you're rolling on dirt while laughing...

6. shiela "elai" marin
the girl who has travelled half of the world already, and is ready to tell it all... her adventures has left us all wondering... where will she go next? will it be the piazza de spagna? or someplace else? we don't know... but for sure, she'll be there by the next sunrise of June 2009...


7. andrea "andeng" mallari
the girl who has taught hundreds of children about values, filipino, and whole lot more that education teaches us... she's the teacher of the group... she doesn't drink alcoholic drinks unlike me, and the rest of the gang... she doesn't smoke unlike me and only me... but she loves to give friendly advices and warm hugs to all of her friends alike... kudos!

8. jayvelin "jayvee" escobido
the girl who has a lot to say... but... for some reasons... she just can't explain it... actually, even us can't explain that certain phenomena in our barkada lives... but still... she's one of the most considered as a bombastic gal in our group, since she's the only one who has this indian look, that brings out the beauty in every girl and in every man's fantasy... jeff... alert! hehehehehe


whoo! that's it folks... the people whom i consider as the best of the best... nothing beats the hell out of them... even if i have this hundreds and hundreds of friends... it all boils down to them... so i just wanna say... thank you to all of you and KUDOS!

burying the past behind

it's been two months since my last entry.. and for the past two months, a lot of things has been moving in and about.. like.. i got kicked out of the house for making a fuss about those two interns, my mom's been imposing these ridiculous rules just to annoy me and to amuse them, my dad's been in a very awesome mood swings (one day he's good, next day he's bad), my brother's big turn around of anger towards me, my nephew raffy finally learned how to walk, me thinking of joining this society of some people, i would really like to try buddhism or shintoism, and a plus, i'll be saying goodbye to this activity i've been doing for a year.

yeah... it's been a year... a year of torment and languish... people have been persuading me that this is the perfect activity for me... but i know myself... it isn't... i know what i want and what i need... i've been feeling like this since i started doing this activity, and for some reasons, it backfired... oh lo... why do i have to feel this severe mental distress? if only i have escaped this correctional facility, i wouldn't be experiencing this agony of despair... they put me in this brig where they told me i have to enhance myself for 30 days or else they would bound me from this activity... so, instead of letting myself be expired by the same people who put me in this brig, i myself relinquished this forsaken activity i've been holding for a year now because of some people told me so...

i mean, i just don't get it... why do they have to manipulate the minds of other people just to have this weird satisfaction in their minds... is this some kind of achievement or goal in their lives that if they persuade someone to do their biddings, they would reach nirvana?

enough of this scarred lithium, and let's start over with this new illumination...

just a quick recap, this life is just like a blood coming out of a wound ready to be tasted by nature... it has been quite an experience and i learned a lot from the people who handled, mistreated, guided, misguided, helped, and discriminated me all throughout the way... this is coming from a monster who has a lot to say, but has little time to tell it all...

and for the record... i just wanna say... thank you...

for you guys made me who i am today... someone full of sadness and unrequited love...

but for those people who believed in me... i just wanna say big and warm... thank you...

for you guys made me who i am today despite the sadness and unrequited love... someone who hopes for a new and better tomorrow...

now i know for myself that i am good enough... good enough for the world to see and behold...

then again... thank you... you made my one full year full of memories and tears to behold and remembered...

this is gonna be my last post regarding this issue of the matter... after this... it's time to start anew...

--me

a song.. entry for the new year..

a song that reminds me of someone... someone i want to be with... for such a long time na... actually, i really don't know kung asan na siya... last i heard, he's currently in madrid. oh well... here it goes, it's a song by leigh nash - need to be next to you

this is gonna be my first entry for the new year.. just to start off for something meaningfull, at least for me.

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Been running from this feelings for so long
Telling my heart I didn't need it
Pretending I was better off alone
But I know that it's just a lie
So afraid to take a chance again
So afraid of what I feel inside

'cause I need to be next to you
(need to be next to you)
Oh I, oh I
I need to share every breath with you
(share every breath with you)
Oh I, oh I
I need to know I can see you smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night
for rest of my life
Here with you, near with you, oh I
cause I need to be next to you
i Need to be next to you

Right here with you is right where I belong
I lose my mind if I can't see you
Without you there is nothing in this life
That would make life worth living for
I can't barely thought if you're not there
I can't fight what I feel any more

Cause I need to be next to you
(need to be next to you)
Oh I, oh I
I need to share every breath with you
(shar every breath with you)
Oh I, oh I
I need to know I can see you smile each morning
Look into your eyes each night for rest of my life
Here with you, near with you, oh I
cause I need to be next to you
I need to have your arms next to mine for all the time
Holding for all my life
I need to be next to you
need to be next to you

Need to be, need to be next to you
Share every breath of you
I need to feel you in my arms, baby, in my arms baby
I need to be next to you

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if you wanna hear the song, here's the link from the imeem site:
http://www.imeem.com/reiheart/music/6_LxJDi5/leigh_nash_need_to_be_next_to_you/